“If someone said three years from now you’d be long gone…”

I can’t do it immediately, but when Zach and I have arguments, the best way I can move on is to think, “He could be gone any day. Accidents happen, and you need to cherish your time together.” It makes me so emotional I want to cry. It makes me want to kiss him with even more passion than I just put into whatever confrontation we just came out of. I hate to think of something happening to this wonderful person with this beautiful smile, those dimples, that mind… Bodies can endure so much, but sometimes they’re so fragile. One wrong move and it can all shut down… Even now, I just want to throw my arms around him and feel his heart. I want to feel his skin and his bones, the body that protects the soul I hold so dear.

When someone said count your blessings now
‘fore they’re long gone,
I guess I just didn’t know how
I was all wrong.

…

But I keep
Your memory,
You visit me in my sleep,
My darling.
Who knew?

I love you, my Zach.